we are not the same, I am a monster

we are not the same
i devour
I sit in hospital beds with one lover
and empty rooms with a blanket over my head with another,
holding hands pretending the clock is not ticking
I am not the same as you
I am a monster
I enjoy kissing one man and eating another.
I wish my innocence was still intact
but by the way my ex still calls
intertwined dreams of me and his best friend
which i cannot lie, are truth,
i Know, I cannot be with anyone anymore.