skin/skin

my stomach hurts a little
I am nervous
my clitoral energy still vibrating warning signals
"be careful of the fire" it whispers/screams/says gently
I had sex last night sin condom,
I know him, at least, we have made out several times
and I have went down, way down and back up again
so I feel it will be okay,
yet I am nervous, biting my phantom fingernails
will I be sick? sick before pregnant every time
from all the worrisome sickness-es.
I won't be able to afford the anti-fungals abroad
but perhaps it won't be needed.
I feel like I want to be celibate. Until
I can trust myself and then trust others.